Sometimes
I feel like an angel
flying high
beautiful and so goddamn free
look at me everybody
somebody loves me.
This angel's wings
are lifted by the breath
of an angel so far away
and yet so close
Sometimes.
Sometimes I feel so enlightened
so spirited and so touched.
This angel.
This me.
Halo, harp, golden wings...
all because of you.

Sometimes
I feel so low
I could die and be content
in the air I didn't breathe
my breath has all been spent.
Mistakes....
The ones so obvious
The ones that will take time to make
Nails in my coffin
Nails in my dreams
Bury me quickly
So that I may not see the light
So that I may not know
Just exactly where I went wrong.
Quickly.
Faster.
Gone.
Because of you.
Because I didn't know where to turn.
When to take the longer route.
Instead of taking the easy way out.

Sometimes I feel in the middle
Like a shadow during dusk
The shadow that knows she'll soon
disappear.
The one that dances in spite of her fear
Her time in the sun is about to end.
Her road has been traveled.
Her dreams have been dissected.
Her light no longer exists.
She'll dance in the dark.
She'll dance.
And hope the moon will follow suit.
The stars will applaud
Her fanciful dreams of being
the one in the sky.
The one you admire.
The wish you constantly make.
The star that doesn't fall
The star that doesn't fade
The brightest star in your sky.

Sometimes I feel
Sometimes I don't.
Sometimes I cry.
I always cry.

Sometimes I know you'll always look up
And see the sky you always saw
The one that made you think of me
in the first place.
The one that made you remember
when you were the brightest star
In someone's life.
When you were my star.

And then I realize
You're far too broken to see my wings
To look that high
To feel those things
You're only as tall as you let yourself be
You're only as beautiful
as you feel in the mirror
You're only who you are when you let yourself be
What you've wanted to be all along.
When you figure out you wanted to be loved
Unconditionally
For who you are, were and dream to be
It makes me cry to realize
You'll find that love where you finally give it.
You'll feel that devotion when you deal it out.
You'll realize
You had it...
When your angel takes flight
And doesn't look back
This time.

Hold on to those who give
More than you thought you could feel
Let go of those who defeat
The inside of you when you're trying to break free
From the pain that you've felt
The life that you've been dealt
The dreams you've let go
The hurt you won't show

Sometimes I laugh
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes I cry
Someday I won't.

I've found the brightest light
In the star I've found inside of you
I've lived a greater hope
Than I thought existed
And it was all taken away
And those doors were shuttered
Locked and boarded
Darkened and curtained
Yet I still see through
The emptiness you've placed in front of me
I still hold out
For the person I fell in love with (again)
For the angel I admired
For the soul I connected with
For the YOU I desire.
I cry. I laugh. I cry... and I smile.
I sleep and I dream and I cry and I dream
And I couldn't do it
Without your breath behind my wings
Your light that shines on my halo
Your belief in what was supposed to be.
But it's shattered by the doubts
and it's darkened by the pain
and yet it's not disappeared
It's just harder to believe in again.

Grown stronger still by the fate I believe in
Taking no for an answer not an option
Taking maybe for an answer not an option yet.
Set in stars...set in stone - difference? None.
There was this love
There was this devotion
Overshadowed by your fears
Taken over by my emotion
.... yet not erased.
not forgotten.
Never forgotten - still.
It was never forgotten in the first place.
It wasn't let go.
It wasn't erased.
You were in my life - intangible at best.
You were in my dreams - unspeakable at most.
Sometimes.

Sometimes I wish
This angel could just let you go
Send you with the halo
place you on these wings
Direction only higher up to better things
While the great gospel sings
You are beautiful
You are human
You are the epitome
Of everything in my dreams I've been dreaming
Of the screams that I've been screaming
It's you and I believe that
Sometimes.

Sometimes I believe
You're exactly right on the ball
I don't deserve any star
I simply deserve them all.
Sometimes I know
Everything I ever believed in
Was just a figment of the imagination
I've depended on
The fact remains
This angel's halo is broken
The wings - they're all a joke.
The direction I've taken is far from heaven
The intention I've had - mirrors and smoke
For all I've found faith in
Is you and some stars.
Some passion and connection
Those things that were ours
The playground where you can stay all day
And never return home
Where your parents never call you for dinner
And god considers no one a sinner
When I'm done ...
I just put on my wings
Put my arms up to the sky
Gather some of my strength
and I fly.

Sometimes I fly
Sometimes I can't
Sometimes I cry
Someday I wont.